Taufan Al-Aqsa

My last post on Palestine was in 2012. An attack of air strike and ground operation for eight days which had killed 87 civilians including 35 children and 14 women. That wasn't the first or starting point to this whole barbaric massacre in the name of conflict. The oppression and occupation has started long time ago and still ongoing to this very day.

But nothing feels the same after last Oct 7th. 68 days. The death toll keep rising. The city has been razed to the ground. From the north to the south, there is literally no safe place to go. 

How could you call it a conflict when it is clearly and demonstrably an act of genocide that have been committed for over 75 years long now?

How much longer Palestinians need to endure this continuous assault?

How many Palestinians need to be killed to stop this ethnic cleansing?

How many tons of bombs need to be dropped in Palestine before the US agree for a ceasefire?

How many war crimes Zionist need to commit before they'll be dragged to the international criminal law?

I feel sick to my stomach to read and watch the updates everyday.

I can't believe that I'm living in today's world just to witness this unjust and inhumane catastrophe which caused mass casualties and the criminal is still living free with no consequences. 

Apparently, when it comes to Palestine all these resolutions of United Nations to protect human rights, deliver humanitarian aid, uphold international law and maintain international peace and security ain't applicable. Hence, the US alone could block almost all other UN Security Council members and dozens of other nations' demand for an immediate humanitarian Gaza ceasefire.

The hypocrisy is plainly unveil. 💀

Look at the data and tell me how could a normal person think this is a war when they are deliberately targeting civilians, NGOs, journalists and medical stuffs? This is by far the worst war crimes ever committed by a country and get full support from the US and UK. SHAMEFUL! We will never forget. They have blood on their hands!

Zionist is not just attacking and killing Palestinians but also cut off electricity, water and food supply - the basic human necessities! Gazans are dying from hunger and cold right now and we are part of this history to allow such evil and monstrous torture to happen in this modern world, a dystopian world indeed. 

"O Allah, aid our vulnerable brothers and sisters in Palestine and in all places. O Most Merciful of the Merciful, take them by their hand, protect them, be gentle with them and give them victory over disbelieving people, O Lord of Majesty and Bounty."

"From the river to the see, Palestine will be free"

Qalb

Watched Buya Hamka Vol 1 on 24th Aug. There is this one line - one of his infamous words of wisdom just hit me hard; 

“Salah satu pengkerdilan terkejam dalam hidup adalah membiarkan pikiran yang cemerlang menjadi budak bagi tubuh yang malas, yang mendahulukan istirahat sebelum lelah.”

It made me started to reflect upon my life again. Though it has become almost like a routine whenever I’m in my seclusion moment yet everything seems too blurry for me. I often questioned my purpose in this dunya. Is this all I could do? Is this all I meant to be? Am I too laid back? Do I really enjoy to be in this comfort zone? Not that I haven’t tried doing things differently. Not that I stop believing. But why does it seems I’m already at a dead end when I know I have so much to offer. 

Hence, Buya Hamka’s words shook me to the core. Question that stuck in my head; “Am I THAT person who he meant with didn’t cultivate and practice the knowledge that I have?”

Crestfallen.

Sometimes I do feel like giving up. I do feel like “ok whatever” and just wanted to go with the flow. But that is just not me. I keep telling myself, for whatever future holds for me, the only thing I shouldn’t stop doing is - to do my best whilst putting my whole faith in His plan for me.

Today, Eris Raissa came back from school with a prize that she won in one of competitions held in her school. But that’s not the point. I was so moved when she said, “This is for you Mommy” while she rubbing my back when I’m struggling to talk due to Laryngitis as a sign she knows what I’m trying to say - that I’m proud of her. Ahhh~ she’s so sweet like a little angel who knows what to say and do right thing at the right time. 

She also told me during her Agama class, Ustazah asked if there’s any student memorised surah An-Naas. And so, she with other one boy went to the front class to recite it. At this point, I’m beyond proud. It’s like Allah is on my side telling me I’m just doing good - that I should just continue doing the best I could.

We didn’t send our kids to KAFA. There are few factors that led to that decision and consequently, I begin teach them by myself.

At first I wasn’t too confident but teaching them one-on-one ensured me that this would be the best way as they will get full attention and I could track myself their progress and correct their lacks. It goes same with prayer where I demonstrate and show the steps so we could practice and pray together. Alhamdulillah, both of them; Eris and Elysia did so well for their age.

Having said that, being able to teach them by myself is indeed the moment that I treasure the most. And apart of that, I still have number of boxes yet to be checked in my own KPI list.

Now with these two delighted events in the latter would be sufficient for me to keep going. In shaa Allah, amin yra. 🤍

Young Mind

While having lunch with my kids after they came back from school;

Eris: Mommy, Alexandra asked me if I am rich. Cause she thought I live in a castle.

Me: Oh, why she said so? 

Eris: I don’t know.

Me: Then, what did you tell her? 

Eris: I told her I’m not rich. My house is like others. Just a normal house.

Me: Indeed right.

I feel relieved and proud at the same time. Relieved because she feels comfortable being herself and proud because she’s being honest.

Kids nowadays tend to give in to peer pressure as they want to be liked or they think it helps them fit in. How some of these kids are easily associate a brand symbol to a social status and judge others for wearing or having anything less than them. 

But I’m so glad her atmosphere and circle of friends are leading to positivity traits. How they really enjoy their friendship and filled with love, kindness and support. As far as I knew, she never mentioned or raised any concerns related to her school’s stuffs nor her physical being judged by her friends.

Because I know some of my friends had to deal with those things with their children. How their kids’ friends would make fun of their kids’ stuffs; ie - for not having phone, not owning any Smiggle collections etc.

The way I see it, our kids is our own reflections. How we raise, educate and instill good manners and thoughts in shaping them to be a good person that would benefit others and their surroundings.

I pray and really hope that my kids will forever stay true to themselves and not easily being affected by any bad influence. Being confident in their own skin and having strong principles will guide and help their mind to stay focus in achieving their goal instead of minding and worrying about what other people think of them.

We as a parent play a major role in their life -  to be a good role model for them. Their today’s school of thought, self-identity and intelligence will define what kind of nation we’re making in the future.

With that being said, I hope I could deliver this crucial task as a Mom for my kids. ♥️