Have faith..

When I was a baby, am not among baby yg kiutmiutlagiadorablemacamnakpicitpipi. neaaahh~ Unlike my mother, who is pretty and has fair skin, I have caramel skin and hairy. =.= Trust me, it's really made Mama upset. Her baby girl didn't seem cute at all. Plus bila ada org tanya Mama, "is it your baby?? Macam anak keling je.." dush! 

Not a good start bila waktu  kecik pon da kena condemn. But it's okay, HAVE FAITH you ugly duckling. sigh.

With Abang in the airport.

Mungkin agak cerah sket, tp mungkin jugak disebabkan bedak separuh botol yang ditempek Mama di muka sy membuatkn kelihatan agak cerah. (",)

When I was in primary school, I have a dream to go to MRSM. Everytime lalu je dpn MRSM Langkawi, I always told myself that after UPSR I'll make sure, I get my spot in MRSM. I've always been fond of MRSM Langkawi. Because at the age of 12, it was a new building with super cool facilities which other MRSMs didn't have. So, I really hope I could be those among brilliant students yg akan masuk MRSM. But unfortunately, I wasn't clever enough when I only got 3A's in UPSR which obviously didn't qualify me to enter MRSM. Bukan tak layak masuk je, nk apply pun tak layak. pffffft.

But it's okay, HAVE FAITH you dumb ass. =.=

Since then I study so hard to ensure that I'll achieve my next target to be a University student. Not just study hard, but I also asked my parents to send me to a school outside Langkawi so I could stay in a hostel. A girl school to be specific. Can u believe dat? Normally, parents yg beria nak antar anak g sekolah asrama but in my case, it's the other way round. Sampai Mama pulak yg risau. "Bole ke I nk berdikari? Bole ke I nk basuh baju sendiri nti? Bole ke I nk hidup x tgk TV? Bole ke kalau I mkn lauk yg sama every week? Bole ke I nk kena bgn awl time cuti? N bole ke I nk stay in sekolah perempuan sahaja??" She's so worried yg I akan jd lesbian, pengkid or tomboy nti. LOLOL But I told Mama not to worry. I just wanna be independent and more focus on my study. And Alhamdulillah, I managed to get 6A's in PMR. =)

I had hope for the same, success in my SPM. When trial I got 5A's, I was so confident that I could score more As in SPM. Cikai-cikai 7 or 8A pown ok la kan? But who would've thought, in the actual SPM I got less than 5A's. I was so frustrated. 3 hari menangis dlm blik and kept blaming myself.

And for that, HAVE FAITH you OVER-confident-girl. tsk.

Somehow, I still managed to make my dream come true; getting into University. The perfect one for me, UiTM dihatiku. 😉 Alhamdulillah, I succeeded in completing my Diploma and Degree on time tanpa pernah sangkut / repeat paper. Malah hasrat untuk mendapat Anugerah Dekan / Dean List juga tercapai. Tapi cita-cita ingin tamat pada tahap pertama / First Class Grad x tercapai. Cuma mampu mendapat Second Upper Class. damn.

So, HAVE FAITH you playful girl.

When it comes to personal matters, I'd consider myself as unlucky in love. Being in a relationship for six years and ending up with nothing felt pathetic. Well, I have to admit it still scares me sometimes. Afraid of getting hurt again.

But it's okay, I keep telling myself to HAVE FAITH my dear heart..

Chasing my dream career is my next challenge. Even though I knew I prolly could not / would not fulfill it yet I still wanted to give it a try. Because the major problem with me is am so stubborn. And I won't give up until I'm sure something really isn't meant for me. Which more often than not, at the end of the day, I sedih sendiri.

This is because I always HAVE FAITH in me...

p/s: Whatever life gives you, even if it hurts, just be strong and act like you’re okay. Strong walls shake, but never collapse.

pp/s: Have faith pretties..

xo!