tbt.

Haie loves!! Recently I have to say that I've fallen in love with FS. Bukan Friendster harap maklum. Tp Formspring. hee~ :D

Sometimes wujud soalan-soalan yang menguji minda and tak kurang jugak soalan-soalan yang agak kontroversi mencungkil rahsia. LOL

And speaking of Formspring, I am sharing this particular person’s question for the second time here. THIS was the first one. And new soalan ada kat bawah nie (just click at the pic to enlarge);

pergggh~ jawapan taknak dramatik lagi kan. LOL

*Amik mode jiwang sekejap*

Frankly speaking, I'm actually enjoying my single life right now. And guess what? It's almost been 3 months already. Mengagumkan. 😂 I'm SINGLE for 3 months yaaaaaw!!

I can honestly say that, before this, I never really spent much time being single. Usually, within a couple of weeks after a breakup, I would already have someone new. But that was the old me, when I was still figuring things out, more impulsive and probably didn't understand the value of taking things seriously.

But things different now. I've grown and become much wiser I believe. Pemikiran pun dah lain sikit. Kalau dulu hidup nak chill-chill je. But now, I'm more serious in life. As in there's another big issue I have to think about rather than love. Okay. Don't get me wrong. I'm not cutting guys out of my life altogether. It's just that... I'm choosing to take a vacation from dating for a while. I feel like it's exactly what I need to reconnect with myself, recharge my energy and simply enjoy my own company.

As a matter of fact, I think I'm starting to love this single life. Okay, tipu la kalau kata I tak pernah rasa nak disayangi, dimanjakan or have someone to share things with. Of course, deep down, everyone wants that. I just don't think that I'm ready to trade my freedom for anything. I've given my whole heart to someone in the past for 6 years and now I feel like it's time for me to give that same love and attention back to myself.

I want to learn how to love myself before I love someone else. Because honestly, I'm afraid... what if I can't make that "someone" happy? Siapa je yang tak suka kalau ada orang ikhlas nak menyayangi kita? Tapi dalam masa yang sama, I don't want to be loved if I'm not ready, because I'm afraid, I might end up hurting that person. (Okay, dah mula rasa tekak nak meloya dengan ayat sendiri. 😂)

As cliché as it may sound, being single is so much fun! I realized that I could tune into my random impulses and favorite habits without worrying about anyone else. It is such a great feeling! And guys, for now, are just guys. Not every interaction has to lead to something romantic. I'm simply enjoying friendships, conversations and connections without any hidden intentions. That's all.

Nevertheless, I know there will come a time when my heart is ready to welcome someone again. A time when I’m prepared to commit, to love and to build something meaningful with another person. But for now, that chapter hasn’t arrived yet. And I’m learning to embrace the chapter I’m currently living.

p/s: Okay, penat membebel. But at least everything is crystal clear now for all MRs. No confusion, no assumptions, aite! Have a good day. *wink*